The past week has been a haze of crumpled paper, unending leftovers, and a vague sense that I may have been through something I can't quite recall. Christmas Eve was really the nadir, which is too bad because I used to love that best of all. But people started streaming in, little girls in velvet bodices and plaid skirts, gals in Santa hats, in-laws, sons-in-law of in-laws... And I became a new bride who had never held a party or fed a crowd EVER. Three pounds of bacon wrapped water-chestnuts vanished in a few moments, dozens of potato pancakes (
PC or Linda loves potatoes?) Bags of egg rolls, even some
TJ pot stickers were pressed into action. Two tenderloins were rescued before they overcooked, only to find they were RAW in the center. AND I had failed to trim them, mistaking
BJ's for a real butcher shop.
That's why Roche's gets the big
bux.
The Santa we recruited was someone Chris knew... apparently so huge we couldn't mash him into the Santa suit. We played hot-potato with the "So now, who here is going to play santa?" with all the men at my party doing a great impression of a silent Stevie Wonder.
"Not me, mon"
And then, He arrived. No, not Jesus, but Santa, in full regalia was at our door. Three year old Brody had just popped his eighth raspberry Vol au Vent into his mouth, as Santa strode past and into our living room. With great flourish, he dispensed the gifts, and all the while I am thinking, "who the hell is this" when he then presents ME with a gift. A squeaky story book about reindeer. What tha...... ?? He said it was from Libby. Huh? So now, I am the only one in my immediate family besides Drew who "believes."
We had a full night, with an embarrassment of riches, (don't get me started on the obscenity of
the whole gift exchanging thing, or I will rant clear through February) and no real Silent Night to follow.
I am grateful for the fact that I had all my kids and grandkids around me and Jim sleeping peacefully upstairs through it all. But I hated feeling so glad when it was over, as though some sinister beast had been tailing me for about a month. New Years resolution is to reevaluate everything I take for granted and get rid, not only of some of the "stuff" but some of the expectations too.